New Year's Day is not just another day. Though sometimes I wish it were. New Year's Day has a way of getting under my skin pushing up memories of the past years to the surface. New Year's Day feels like someone opens my front door, takes the rug off the floor and shakes it out the window of my being. Buried feelings, promises not kept, ideas that never made it to reality, words said, words not said, paths not taken...
As the emotional dust billows overhead I found myself contemplating what needs to be cleaned up and how to let go of things that don't need to be around anymore. And yes... of course, I swept a few things back under the rug.
The other evening I went for a meditative walk around our village, down the hill, under the moon, along the little road with the cold misty night air scented with pine and rosemary, my senses feeling the rush of goodness that nature brings. I listened to the sound of my feet on the path, to the night birds singing, and as I approached the center of the village I heard the church bells ring. Peaceful joy.
The dust cloud settled. The feelings of "New Year" paved evenly underfoot and the moon came out from behind the cloud. I unlocked the front door walked into our house and felt home.
I promise to not to swear.
I promise to put Christ before my actions and words.
I promise to not procrastinate.
I promise to travel more.
I promise to embrace all the imperfections in me and claim them my own.
I promise to say give affirmations and say I love you more.
I promise not to worry if I do not keep any of these promises after today.
My word for this year is "discipline" which I need considering I already swore three times.
What do you hope the New Year will bring?
corey I feel the same way about the new year....this year was different because I think I am just so tired-- really tired --I couldn't muster up the energy or the emotions...a blessing maybe-I think....I am in the process of choosing between 2 words CALM and AWARE needing more time to choose-
Posted by: g | 02 January 2020 at 01:25 AM
I really like the word discipline. I need more of that in my life. I also like your promises, although I will replace the word promise with “hope”. Thanks for helping with my 2020 wishes. I HOPE to have DISCIPLINE!
Posted by: Nina | 02 January 2020 at 08:59 AM
I have a new goal of doing 1,000 art projects in my life time. I figure if I do 1 per week, I'll reach my goal in 20 years. Don't know if I have the patience for it. And it will take 2 years to get really good because right now I have no talent. I guess, discipline, is also my goal as it is yours. :) I've also almost reached my goal of #OneThousandReasonsToBeHappy. I'm on 700 something. I've been doing one per day for over 2 years. When I get to 1,000 I'm going to do 2,000. And I'm going to keep it up my whole life. My FB friends are always telling me they love it because FB can be so negative.
Posted by: Julie | 02 January 2020 at 11:16 AM
And thank you for being so inspiring! I only read blogs like yours!
Posted by: Julie | 02 January 2020 at 11:17 AM
I love reading your blog you are such an inspiration! My verse for this year is Endurance and my scripture verse is Psalm 62.5 "Yes my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him."
Posted by: Cheryl | 02 January 2020 at 01:56 PM
My "thought" going into the new year is to remind myself frequently that "This is what I want." My resistance to reality makes me miserable all too often.
All the best to you and yours.
Kate in Canada
Posted by: Stubblejumpers Cafe | 02 January 2020 at 02:39 PM
I love how you express yourself...
and your walk about your village. Palpable.
Posted by: Shelley Wildgen | 02 January 2020 at 03:44 PM
I wanna lose 10 pounds. The swearing thing isn't realistic for me. Cheers.
Posted by: Diogenes | 02 January 2020 at 06:30 PM
Happy New Year & Blessings! Dave & Teresa
Posted by: Teresa Young | 02 January 2020 at 07:29 PM
Maybe this will be the year that I stop swearing. Maybe I’m too old to change....
Ali
Posted by: Ali | 02 January 2020 at 09:50 PM
I walked along side you thru the village. Saw the same moon up above AND will join you in your quest to stop swearing. My nuns never would have approved. But the printer jammed and I've already broken my vow. Tomorrow is another day! Thank you for the lovely words of inspiration. I'm going out to sweep the front porch, even under the welcome mat!
Posted by: PJT | 02 January 2020 at 10:24 PM
Cheers!
Posted by: Lsulli124@gmal.com | 03 January 2020 at 01:31 AM